Romans 1:28-32

"²⁸Furthermore, since they did not think it worthwhile to retain the knowledge of God, he gave them over to a depraved mind, to do what ought not to be done. ²⁹They have become filled with every kind of wickedness, evil, greed and depravity. They are full of envy, murder, strife, deceit and malice. They are gossips, ³⁰slanderers, God-haters, insolent, arrogant and boastful; they invent ways of doing evil; they disobey their parents; ³¹they are senseless, faithless, heartless, ruthless. ³²Although they know God's righteous decree that those who do such things deserve death, they not only continue to do these very things but also approve of those who practice them."

This is kinda how i feel about my life sometimes. I mean, I love jesus.. but when i look at myself. I dont think i can see him anywhere. it's pathetic.

I haven't written on this thing in forever, i know. I'm sorry for that Heath. :o)

Life has been restless lately.. I haven't had a good nights rest since before school let out.. I feel as if i'm just wasting my time right now.. I'm just busting my butt for what? i feel like i have nothing saved for school; everytime i get a pay check, i have to pay bills with it. everytime i have money, i feel a new bill creates itself. I'm working 40 hours a week in 4 days.. which is nothing, but i'm also taking a class on my days off.. and sitting in class for 2.5 hrs twice a week is worse than working a 12 hr shift. i'm just ready for summer to be over. so ready. i'm just really burnt out on life right now. July was a bad month for me.

sorry, i was in the middle of writing and just walked away... i might update again soon.... i dont feel like finishing my post right now...

:)

I am a blogger extraordinaire!

'nuff said.

For Heath

I'm sorry i haven't updated in forever... i actually have been really busy. you should know this with how frequently we talk on yahoo.. haha

okay, now it's story time.


This one day, not to mention any names...coughheathcountrymanhackcoughsomemore.. suggested to me that the Bengals would finish the season somewhere around 3-13.. then a few weeks later.. a week or two before the season started.. suggested to me that they'd finish at least 12-4... as of right now... i think the 3-13 was a hopeful exaggeration. haha

The End

9-11

3 weeks....

So, I have 3 weeks and a few days until I go back to mt. vernon... found out last week that i didn't have all the stuff they need after.. oh.. idk.. about 2 weeks worth of emailing this one lady she finally says she can't put together a financial aid package because they didnt have everything... why this genius lady didn't tell me this a little earlier.. oh yeah... idk... that just really frustrated me.


hopefully i'll know how much i'll owe within the next few days.. then i'll have a week to get everything i need together! yeah!.....


i'll be more excited when i find out how much i have to pay and when i get confirmed.

20 lbs in 3 months!

so, since i've stopped working out.. i've gained a bunch of weight.. and about a week ago.. my friend and i made a bet.. that i will lose 20 lbs in 3 months.. and keep it off for another 3... for i think 25 bucks? haha, and.. if you know me well, i'll pretty much do anything for a little extra cash! it'll give me a little extra motivation to get a dead sexy bod! haha


i know i haven't actually posted an entry in forever.. i have a few saved, but haven't posted in awhile..

I've decided to go back to mt. vernon! I sent in my deposits on friday! I think things will be different this time around. I really do. I lacked motivation there and devoted almost all my time with work and my ex. ugh. haha i guess we learn from our mistakes.


like i was saying about i'll do anything for money... someone from pizzahut is trying to steal me from dominos!! and it's sooo tempting... i'd make soo much more at pizza hut.. but I LOVE the people at dominos.. i wish i could just do both 3 different nights a week until i find something that'll pay me more and somewhere that i'll be able to save my car...


i dont know what i want to do.... ahh!