Reds

So, i can't wait until March 31!!!! My beloved Reds start their season against the Diamondbacks and i'm going to do everything i can to get tickets at a decent price!! lol

isn't that a great picture?!?! :o) i made it my desktop because it's soo amazing. I love the Reds.. they're my summer obsession. I think they're going to have a great season this year.

so, i left yesterday.. it was pretty hard for me... saying goodbye to everybody.. even the kids that do drugs.. they have all become brothers to me.. and i made friendships that i don't want to walk away from... it's tough.. but I think the biggest thing for me is... I'm not sure if it was the right decision.. i pray and hope it is.. but i haven't been happy... and my relationship with God is worse than it was before i left for college.. I don't think paying to go to a christian university and my relationship with God get weaker and weaker with every passing day is worth the extra money, but that's just me...

after i got home last night, I had a really short conversation with trish via text.....exciting....i know.. ha.... I told her i was sorry for everything... it was heart felt.. and that was it.. I think i've finally let go..

ugh, i gotta start looking for a new joh. lol.. i've had a nice break since my last day at dominos.. i feel a little refreshed.. but until school starts i want to work my butt off until i start school again so i wont have to work as much during spring quarter at Wright State... idk.. I'd like to work at Best Buy and delivering somewhere.. i'm not sure if i want to work at a store delivering to UD or just here in Huber... but, i'd like a job at Best Buy so i'm able to get discounts on everything because that'd just be amazing. lol. :o) if i get it, i'm going to be broke, but i'll have a lot of SAWEEEEEEET toys!! lol

who wakes up at 6:30am on a freaking saturday?!?! ahh!! i've been up for 3.5 hrs watching stupid movies because nobody's awake. i'm going to go unload my car, shower, call bill and see if he wants to go job huntin because he makes like 30 bucks a week.. hahaha how pathetic! :o)


have a wonderful weekend guys!!!
i can't wait for april!! BASEBALL SEASON!!!

Goodbye Friends at the Naz..

To all my friends that i didn't get to say bye to...

i'm sorry for not getting the chance to say bye


i love you!!
i'm going to miss you chumps! ;)

Soo...

I'm sitting here, almost 5:30 in the morning.. with soo much going through my head that the thought of sleep seems like such a difficult task.. I laid there for about 25 minutes in my bed.. completely miserable.. so, i decided i'd get out of bed.. now i sit here.. starting to get organized and pack so i can spend my last day with my friends and not worry about getting packed and whatnot.. the only thing i really have to do besides load my car is my laundry...

i've had a rough 2 months.. i've lost motivation to do a lot of things.. i'm ready for a break.. and for changes in my life..
just 3 more days!! and my break begins..


i think this is about the 14th time i've pulled an all nighter this month.. i've gotten no sleep..
it's a nice feeling not having to set any alarm.. i don't really know what i want to do with work when i get back.. i could probably very easily get a job at pizza hut or dominos back at home..


i just don't know.. i'd like to work 2 jobs until i start school then only work at maybe Best Buy once school starts.(get the sweet employee discounts! haha)


idk..

i don't think any of this makes any sense.. but oh well.. haha

last day of work starts in 11:45 minutes. probably is over in less than 15 hrs! wahoo!!! :)


this will probably be my last post before i leave..
sooooo..

goodbye friends at the naz

i feel like a little child fishing with his father.. that has fallen off the deck... and is struggling to just get his hand out in the water.. because the kid knows that his dad is there to grab his hand and pull him out of the water.... except... I don't see a hand... and i'm beginning to drown...

Ay Yai Yai...

i was doing okay... i broke again tonight..
now i have to be strong...or else.

i'm afraid...


i need prayer.. and a lot of it..

i cannot wait to transfer out of this place.

:o)

as one chapter and door begins to close in my life...

i'm beginning to see another door open!!


things are starting to turn around in my life.....